Call me Crazy!

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I have come to realize that I am a mildly crazy person… ok, that’s actually not new news to me at all. I’ve always been slightly beyond the sanity line (but in a good, fun and goofy kind of way) I’m a bit quirky sometimes …any who, I’m putting this out there in hopes of finding out that I am not alone.

I am the kind of person that when I find something new that I like I become crazy obsessed. For example, when I discovered how amazing Wonder Woman is I had to buy everything in sight that had her likeness. Figurines, shirts, necklaces, wallet, key chain (the list goes on trust me) ….all the way down to a tattoo. Don’t get me wrong, I’m ok with it and I absolutely LOVE Wonder Woman so the obsession will continue forever. Haha

My newest thing is Loki from Thor/Avengers and the Avengers franchise in general. I’m pretty sure my boyfriend thinks I’m nuts. Which isn’t wrong …but I can’t help it and he’ll accept it eventually I hope. LoL

Now it is not just characters that I do this with. I did it with Boston as well. The whoooole damn city! I went to visit and fell in love with that place. I legitimately almost didn’t leave. When I did leave I tried everything I could to plan to move there. I became obsessed with Boston sports team (Go Pats and Sox) …an obsession that carries on several years later and will forever. It’s just an amazing place.

Anyway, is anyone else like that?

Does anyone else find something or someone or somewhere that they just can’t help but become crazy about?

Again …just trying to justify my crazy here! Lol

Anyway, I suppose that’s the end of my little rant for today.

 

Thank you for being a part of my journey,

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Mommy’s are the BEST!!

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With Mother’s Day just a couple days away I want to take a moment to not just reflect on how lucky I am to have the best Mommy in the world but to reflect on how awesome moms are.

So often we think about a Mom as someone who gave birth to you. But there is so much more than that. Of course there are your birth Mommy’s but just as important are step moms, adoptive moms, or even pet moms! They’re all awesome!

Sometimes a mom isn’t even someone you call mom. It is someone who has always been there for you, guiding you and showing you the way. Someone who has put Band-Aids on your boo boos and tucked you in at night. It could be a big sister that practically raised you or a grandma that took you in when your birth mom wasn’t there. Maybe an aunt or a best friend’s mom… it could be anyone that you want it to be. For some people it’s their Dad.

I was lucky enough to have the best mom EVER! As I’ve gotten older I’ve realized just how awesome she is. My mom has always been the most selfless person I have ever known. She’s been incredibly strong and never so much as blinked an eye when I asked her for help. She’s been there through the hardest moments in my life from losing my dad when I was 8 all the way through being an angry teenager and then going through a horrible marriage and divorce. She has been my rock and my biggest supporter. She’s just the best!

But I am very aware that not everyone was so lucky, and for that I am even more grateful.

I hope that if you are reading this that you were blessed to have an incredible mom, and if you weren’t I hope you had someone special in your life that was there to encourage you when you needed it or that you had the fire to fight and become the best you that you can be no matter what your circumstances were.

And if you are a mom I hope you have the incredible Mother’s Day that you deserve!

Happy Mother’s Day Mom(s)!

 

Thank you for being a part of my journey,

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Why Do I Write?

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Why do I write …

To be honest it took me a long time to decide I wanted to try blogging because I was afraid maybe embarrassed about the things I wanted to say and share. When I started a handful of years back it was because I was in a dark place and thought it would be a good outlet to not only express my feelings and thoughts but to also use my experiences to help someone else. Have I don’t that? I don’t know but I hope so. Life is so much better now and I don’t need the outlet… so why do it? …well, I just feel like I have a lot to share and can still maybe help someone or even just help make someone’s day better.

But its days like this that frustrate me ….I have no idea what to write and have been trying to figure it out nonstop since last week. I’ve started, stopped, edited and deleted several different posts because they were meaningless and pure ramble. Which I suppose this one is as well. But as a reintroduction I suppose it’s important for people to understand my purpose… unless you want to go back and read all my previous posts (which would be super great and I would love you forever)!!

It just amazes me how much I don’t have to say because life is good now and I’m happy. Your brain has a way of just slowing down when it’s happy. I would never change my journey because it lead me here …to the happiest place I’ve ever been in my life. But it’s been a long and incredibly difficult journey. I’ve been tested, beat down, doubted and treated like dirt. But it was all so worth it.

My only word of advice is to remove the negativity from your life and don’t waste time doing it. Just do it now! It will be difficult at first but it will be so worth it in the end.  We all have our bad days, that’s just life. But there is no reason to keep cancerous friends, or stay in an abusive relationship. There is no reason to let people kick you until you fall and then continue to kick you while you’re down. You have one life… live it for YOU and no one else!!

I’m sorry this is just another rant. But I’m really trying here!! Haha 🙂

 

Thank you for being a part of my journey!

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Photo Challenge – Lines

Today’s photo challenge is Lines.

This beautiful picture was taken from my backyard. I’m truly blessed.

There was once a time in my life when I couldn’t see the beauty around me because I was so wrapped up in my own darkness. But life is different now and I breath these moments in as if they were a requirement to living.

Tennessee is a beautiful place. Take a look at the world around you. Breath in these moments.

Guess who’s Back!

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I literally have no idea what I’m doing here. So this shall be nothing more than a ramble I’m sure. But hey, after a 3 year (or so) hiatus ….I’m going to try this blogging thing again. I loved doing it before ..but then came divorce, and moving and getting my life back. Success!

I have found myself over the past few years wanting to blog and thinking about starting it back up but for whatever reason I just never did. I’ll peruse Pinterest and find myself saving blog prompts and helpful tools! …yet a blog is never restarted. Then yesterday I was cleaning out my overly full email inbox and came across a comment I hadn’t seen yet saying that they really enjoyed my unique way of writing and felt my blog was one that could become viral.

My big head aside, I have no real expectations here. I would love for this to become a popular blog but I’m trying to be realistic. There are probably thousands of incredibly talented bloggers. And here I am ranting about my thoughts, life and experiences. But hey, maybe one of these days it’ll become something. I have always said my life should be a movie.

So though this blog entry is short. I want it to be a re-introduction …from here …the possibilities are endless.

Thanks for being a part of my journey.

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Guilty Pleasures

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Guilty pleasures …where to begin! And NO you gutter minded individuals this is NOT going to be one of “those” posts …get your brain out of the sewage you weirdo! :p   I’m a classy lady!!

 1- Boy Bands –let’s be real. I was 12 at the time Backstreet Boys and NSync and all those other amazing and oh so good looking boy bands were at their prime! It’s a part of me and I have no shame. I will rock out to some Backstreet Boys any day and enjoy every moment!

2- Cheesecake …or anything that has cheesecake in it! Like, I go SERIOUS fat kid mode! I’d eat it every day if it wouldn’t turn me into a hippo.

3- Reality TV – Don’t judge me! I can see you’re judging me! STOP IT!

4- Frozen Yogurt – which by the way I cover in chunks of cheesecake …as well as get the cheesecake flavored yogurt …I told you I’m obsessed with cheesecake!

5- Animal print – it literally looks like a zebra blew up in my car. I am currently sitting here with a leopard print blanket over me and a zebra print blanket hanging over my chair …that’s just the tip of the animal print iceberg!

6- My damn sippy cups – don’t ask why I call them that. I don’t know. I think I did it when I was in one of my weird childish moods and it just stuck. But those damn tumbler cups that are everywhere ..the ones with the lids and straws and usually cutely decorated or designed …yep I LOVE THEM! I have a legit collection and I refuse to stop… and yes I ABSOLUTELY have animal print ones!

7- Katy Perry – she’s simply amazing! She is my power animal. Who needs a penguin when you can have a Katy ..she roars …it counts (yep that was SUPER cheesy ..deal with it)

8- Makeup – I am such a girl! But seriously! I see a pretty color eye shadow or lipstick and I have to have it ..even though I probably won’t use it; at least probably not often. I literally have a box (much bigger than a shoe box) FULL of makeup! It’s sad. I could feed a small country of the money I’ve spent on makeup.

9- Tattoos – Like I have a legit obsession with getting them and having them! There have been times I’ve contemplated forgoing paying bills to get a new tattoo. Luckily I am responsible …but the thought has definitely been there! I’m addicted.

10- Disney Movies – I could literally sit all day and do nothing but watch Disney movies. And I’m not talking about the newer ones. I mean the good old school ones …Lion King, Beauty and the Beast, Pocahontas, The Little Mermaid, 101 Dalmatians …..The good ones! I would sit there and sing along to every song while I was at it too!!

Thus my list …a  lot of ridiculousness really. But hey, I enjoy it so whatever. I am completely ok with it! I have no shame what so ever! 🙂

 

Thanks for being a part of my journey,

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So much more than a New Years Resolution …

I guess we can call it a life resolution.

I’ve generally always been one of those “New Year, New Me” kinda people. But something about this new year just doesn’t have me feeling like that. These past few years have been increasingly difficult and depressing. I could write a seriously intense book of my life and only include the past 3 years ….it would be quite a read.

This past year (2014) I came to terms with a lot ….I attempted to restore my marriage only for it to blow up in my face. I accepted the fact that my marriage was over and I would never have my fairy tale. (Get married once, be together forever) …I learned to accept that I was in an abusive marriage. Though sometimes it is still hard for me to really say it out loud. I picked up my things and I left. No warning, no plan ….just the knowledge that I had to do it or it would be the end of me. I struggled, and still struggle to find my stability. My own path. I’ve been blessed with amazing friends who have put a roof over my head otherwise I’d be God knows where right now. But that experience alone broke me. At 28 years old I was 18 again …venturing out into the world alone. I was in a new state where I really didn’t know anyone …I had nothing but my dogs and some of my belonging. I managed to build a new life …or at least started to. I dated. Failed. Made new AMAZING friends. I fell apart several times but got back up. I met someone, was able to let my guard down more than I have in a long long time ..was able to feel what it felt like to fall in love again; to some extent I suppose. Of course that ended as it always does …me broken hearted. Lucky me it happened 2 days before the new year. I guess I’m glad it happened then so I can start off the new year knowing the truth instead of being wrapped up in a lie.

But so be it ..here I am …January 1 …2015

It started out differently than I had expected but that’s ok.

Now everyone is posting their new years resolutions. I am just not feeling it. I want this year to be something great and different then the last 3. But I don’t think narrowing my goals down to 1 year is going to cut it. I want to change my life not just my year. So thus ….my life resolution …

In no order….

1- Get back in the gym. I’m sick of feeling fat and out of shape. I want to be able to look in the mirror again and smile being so proud of my hard work and the pay off.

2- Learn to love myself. I’ve tried this over and over and never been able to figure it out. But I need to. I have to.

3- Rid myself of negativity. Sure I’m human it happens but I need to learn to focus on the good and let go of the bad or stressful.

4- Forgive those that have hurt me. I tend to hold onto things which in the end just causes me more pain and anger. I need to learn to just forgive and let go …but never forget.

5- Go on adventures. I live in a big state that is so new to me and has so much to experience. I want to get out and see it all. Have fun new experiences, meet new people!

I guess thats kinda the most of it. Sure it looks like a list of new years resolutions and take it as you may. But these are things I want to start today for ME ..for MY life …not for the new year. These things will hopefully carry far beyond 2015.

Now to be honest I really dont have the motivation for any of this. It’s not like I’m all gungho about it …its just something I know I have to do if I am ever going to have a life that I am happy with…. if I am ever going to be truly happy!

So for you “New Year, New Me” types …Heres to 2015

For those of you who are in my boat ..Here’s to life …

Thanks for being a part of my journey,

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