Yep, that’s annoying


There are a handful of things that push me into a fit of annoyed rage. I want to do nothing more than scream and throw my body on the floor while I kick and cry and throw an absolute 2 year olds temper tantrum. Flailing and all! 

1 — the fact that my computers battery just turned to red as my brain started rolling with ideas of what to write. You have absolutely got to be kidding me….. where the hell is my charger anyway ….

2 — finding my charger buried under stuff ..plugging it in just to discover I now need to unbury that damn thing because the other end somehow got unplugged. ey yie yie

3 — blinkers. Or should I say the lack there of. Ask my husband or anyone that’s ever driven with me really …..when people dont use their blinker I flip out. It drives me nuts. A blinker is not a difficult thing to use and when you use it I know where you’re planning on moving to which helps prevent a car accident. And if your lack of blinker usage causes me to wreck my brand new car …I may end up stabbing you with whatever part you’ve caused to fall off my car. Just saying.

4 — Our President.

5 — People who are rude for no reason. Now, I can be a very rude person sometimes. But I try my hardest not to take my personal stuff out on the innocent passerby. When I go into a store or something like that and an employee is outright rude for absolutely no reason it makes me want to show them my dark side. I’m sorry you’re not having a good day, in fact it may be the worst day of your life and for that I truly feel bad for you …but dont ruin my day. Trust me, life will run its courses and I’ll have my shitty day too. I do not need your assistance. Plus, you being a douche will only make me mad and therefore your day is about to get worse.

6 — People who complain on Facebook about things other people post or facebook trends {ex: cartoon pictures, games ect} I’m sorry if the things I enjoy annoy you. Ignore them. What do you want me to post on facebook? I mean really. What kinds of things are acceptable? So I wanted to share my delicious dinner with everyone. I’m sorry. So I wanted to show a funny picture I found. Laugh a little. So I’m having a bad day and want to share my feelings with my friends and family and get it off my back to help me relax. Try being supportive. Sure people should not post super personal stuff. People should not outright hate on someone or bash someone or call someone out. That’s personal stuff and that’s a form of cyber bullying. If you’re pissed at your husband/wife because they said something stupid or did something you dont like …talk to them about it. Dont make them look like a complete idiot on Facebook. It’s embarrassing and hurtful. However, if hubby trips and falls into a puddle of mud and is laughing about it and you snap a picture …sure share it for a laugh if he’s ok with it. I mean get real people. Its MY Facebook I’ll post whatever I want as long as it’s not hurting anyone else. {this needs to be a blog post of it’s own because I could keep going ……to be continued}

7 — Calling someone and them not answering even though you know they ALWAYS have their phone right in front of them. Dont you know I am what the world revolves around? :p Answer the phone jerk face!! Because if I text you right now and you respond to that but dont answer when I call …I’m going to throw a tantrum to put all other tantrums to shame. {other than the blinker tantrum. That ones the worst}

8 — McDonalds charging for sauces. Bitch! I just paid $8 for a hamburger …give me my sauce!!! You multi billion dollar greedy jackass!! I’m sure you can spare some sauce.

9 — Knowing what you want to wear but not being able to find it only to discover that either its dirty OR you’ve somehow lost part of it. On Valentines Day I was thinking all day about what I wanted to wear for dinner. Because I’ve gained weight I don’t feel comfortable in a lot of the clothes I have. So I FINALLY decided in my head what I wanted to wear. Welp, somehow I’ve lost one of my cute little jackets. I have no idea where the hell it went and it makes me mad. I was so excited to wear it. UGH How do clothes just disappear? Like socks in a drying …..there’s one very well dressed fairy or ghost someone that needs to STOP stealing my clothes. Jerk!!

10 — People who do not control their children. I dont feel like yelling at your 5 year old so please control them and make them stop acting like a little asshole. Just today I almost yelled at a child because my husband and I were walking around KMart trying to find birthday gifts for his daughter. Well this little boy {whos mother was standing 4 feel away} stood in the middle of the aisle with his hands up trying to tell us to stop and trying to tell us we could only walk on the right side of the aisle. I just kept walking as soon as we passed all I could say was kid I’ll walk wherever the fuck I want. I made sure it wasnt so he could hear me. He probably doesnt know how obnoxious he’s being. But his mother on the other hand needed a nice backhand. UGH Control your children or dont have any. My step daughter {obviously not even MY child} would not act like that ever! First her father wouldnt let her, but I wouldnt either. It’s called being the adult and taking responsibility for this little person. How else will they learn?

With that said, there is a handful of things that annoy me. I guess I wanted to write about this simply because I’m sick right now so everything is annoying. haha I try to make humor of it otherwise this stuff would absolutely drive me up a wall! 

What annoys you?


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Burning Down the House



The age old question ….If your house was on fire and you only had time to grab 5 things what would they be? {I’m going to assume all my family and pets are already safe and they happen to have my purse which has my keys and cell phone} ..

1 -All of my pictures which includes the handful on our walls as well as my 2 CD spindles. Those CD’s especially. They carry every picture I’ve taken over the past 15+ years ….and there are easily 10,000 pictures. From birthday’s, parties with my best friends, family, my wedding, and so so much more. I would be so absolutely lost without all my pictures. They are everything to me.

2 -My guns {which includes my husbands as well …and our ammo} Combined we have 5 guns. First off there is a lot of money sitting there. But also our guns mean a lot to us. It is something we love, something we love doing together, and our American right to own. No one will take that away. But most importantly, if I’m going to be displaced from my home where I feel safe and comfortable, I want to know my family will be safe no matter what happens.

3 -My husbands Marine Corps Dress Blues and my Wedding Dress. My husband spent 10 long years serving this country in the Marine Corp and because of it he lives every day with memories that none of us can imagine unless we have been there. He earned those uniforms and to me they signify so much. Plus he also wore his uniform on our wedding day. It was the first and only time I’ve seen him in his dress blues. My wedding dress is self explanatory. haha 

4 -My Simba. A couple weeks ago I posted a photo challenge entry where I spoke about my Simba stuffed animal. I’ve had it since I was 8 years old and I have a deep connection to it because it is a representation of my Dad who passed away when I was 8. It was the one thing I had as a child that made me feel like I wasn’t alone. As simple as it is, there is not much in life that means more to me as far as material objects. If I lost him I would feel like I’ve lost my last physical connection to my daddy.

To be honest, I cant think of a 5th thing. I’ve been sitting here the past 15 minutes trying to think of something and there’s several things going through my mind but none of them are extremely important. I’m thinking clothes or blankets; things that would help my family be a little bit more comfortable. So I guess I’d grab a little of both. I’d just start tossing things out the window! HAHA

All that really matters to me is my family, my pets and our dearest memories. With those things, everything else is replaceable. 

What would you grab?


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Money is the Devil


Yup. I said it! Money is the absolute DEVIL!! I am so beyond over it!

In summary, 2013 was a horrible year …especially with our finances. Without boring you with the entire story, I’ll sum it up.

My husband and I had a roommate that started the financial waterfall of bullshit! He borrowed money and never paid it back, rear ended someone in my husbands car and never told us {we found out when the insurance company sent the claim to us} ..we bought him a cell phone he never paid us back for even though that was the agreement. There was just a whole slew of things. He moved out unexpected and unannounced and no matter how many times we tried, he never paid us back. We were even going to take him to court but we spoke to him and reached and agreement that he yet again …never fulfilled. All in all this put us around $5,000 in a hole.

From there it was an absolute domino affect. Bills started getting backed up and the shit pile kept getting higher. Then in June I was laid off. Which wasn’t so bad at the time because I got a 3 month severance and was positive I’d be all moved to Tennessee and able to find a new job far before that ran out. Wrong! Then 2 months after I was laid off, my husband was medically retired from the Marine Corps. So now all our bills were still behind and we were trying to get everything done on MAYBE 1/3 of the income. Yeah …not cool!

Well, at this point we are still super behind on everything. Thanks for our tax returns we still have a roof over our head and took care of a couple other little things. But the bill collectors are still calling and there is still no substantial income to try and get back on track. Luckily I start work in a week, making decent money, so that will be a nice change and hopefully we can budget it just right and get ourselves back on track.

But I’m sick of the bullshit money carries along with it ….

I’m sick of the arguments it starts.

I’m sick of the tears is causes.

I’m sick of the stress thats related to it.

I’m sick of the damn phone calls. I no longer feel like I have friends because I get calls from bill collectors way more than friends.

I’m sick of the mail being full of nothing but bills and collection letters.

I’m simply sick of it all! Money is an evil thing and I hate it. We are forced to work our asses off and spend so many hours away from our families in an attempt to make enough money to survive. Yet it’s still a struggle. They threaten to take your car away but then how do you get to work? It’s a vicious cycle and it’s disgusting! You can’t live your life to its absolute fullest because you have to work all day every day just to make ends meet. Of course the cost of living keeps going up but our pay checks sure dont. It’s just upsetting. I want to be able to take a nice vacation with my husband but there’s no way we can afford it! Even if we could, when I start work I wont be able to take any time off for awhile. UGH!!!! It’s just so frustrating! How do you balance it all?!

I’ve tried really hard to keep my cool and just do the best I can and I mean, I guess I’ve done alright. But this is not how I want things to be. It’s like we need money more than we need air and food …which is super since you need money to practically buy air and food!

I need to figure out this budgeting thing well enough that responsibilities are taken care of but me and my husband can still have a life. Sure we wont be going to Hawaii anytime soon. But having a nice dinner out now and then would be nice. I dont know. I’m just so frustrated. Today has been practically revolved around money and how much it sucks. So that’s all that I can think about. It’s sickening!

Someone help!


Thanks for being a part of my journey,




A 3-year-old Girl Unwrapping her Birthday Present Got the Gift of a Lifetime: Dad.

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Joshua Carr had been deployed in Afghanistan, but managed to make it home just in time for little Bridget’s birthday. So he decided to give himself as a gift.

“My mother wrapped the box and cut the bottom out, so when I arrived at my parents’ house (where my daughter lived while I was deployed), my mom placed the box over me as I crouched down,” he told Stars and Stripes. “The hardest part was holding the sides to keep the box from moving. I didn’t want to shake the box too early and scare my daughter.”

It was Carr’s second deployment in Bridget’s short lifetime, making her reaction doubly priceless.

The video was posted in September so out-of-town family could watch the reunion, but it’s been going viral since President’s Day.

Source: Huffington Post

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The Best Concert I’ve Ever Been To

ImageSo to go with today’s theme, I want to talk about the most amazing concerts I have ever been too. Too start, I am a huge Avenged Sevenfold fan ..I have been for years. Their music is just genius and their lyrics are deep and truly speak to me. When I started making my own money, I started going to A7X shows. In fact, I went to every show they had in Southern California for a hand full of years. Every show was mind blowing. These guys, no doubt, know how to put on a show.

I went to a few shows where their opening band was Atreyu {also puts on a hell of a show} …as well as Hinder and Buckcherry. But there were 2 shows that will always stick with me.

First was a show that I actually wasnt sure I was going to make it too. I had no one to go with me and everyone who said they would, bailed! I almost didn’t go. In the process of getting there I kept getting lost and stuck in traffic. I no joke was about to turn around and go home. But, I refused to miss this show. It was the first show Avenged Sevenfold had played at home since the death of their drummer Jimmy “The Rev” Sullivan. I was not going to miss this show. It was a big deal. They were also performing from their newest album which was in the process of being recorded when The Rev died. So it was huge. Needless to say, this was one of the most emotional and powerful concerts I could have ever dreamed of. I left that show nearly in tears. My emotions were high. It was just such a powerful experience. I remember when they released the backdrop that was a popular picture of The Rev hugging a couple of the guys. The entire crowd erupted and everyone pulled out their lighters and phones and started waving them around. It was amazing. I remember lead singer M. Shadows thanking everyone for coming and talking about how special that show was to them because of the significance. It was definitely a pull at the heart strings. I will never forget that show and I am so glad that I went. Even if it was by myself. {wasn’t the first show I went to alone}

The second show will always be one of my absolute favorites for a couple reasons. Another band that I am a huge fan of is Papa Roach. One day I remember sitting there having a conversation about bands and saying how much I wish Papa Roach and Avenged would play together but it would probably never happen. Well much to my surprise, a few months later, it was announced that they would be doing a hand full of shows together … but there was one 1 in Southern California …and it just so happened to be on my birthday! I sure as hell wasnt going to miss it ….and I didnt! My friend came with me and it was just such a blast. We were so close to the stage I swear I could have reached out and touched them. Both bands put on a killer show and made it a birthday to remember. Opening for Papa Roach and Avenged was Buckcherry and Hinder ….so yeah, it was definitely a hell of a show. All 4 of these bands are amazing and you can see their passion in the way they perform. Ive been to a lot of concerts and these bands are by far some of the best performers ever. Absolutely amazing!

I was raised with music. My dad was a musician. So music is a huge part of me. I connect with bands and their songs. It is what has gotten me through some hard times. Besides tattoos, music is my way to let it all go and express myself. I am grateful to have witnessed these bands and will never forget it!


Photo Challenge: Threes


I’ve been to several Avenged Sevenfold concerts but these photos were taken from one of the best shows I have ever been too. It was their first show back home after the death of their drummer; Jimmy “Rev” Sullivan. It was one of the most powerful shows I had ever seen. These guys are true artists and I honestly cannot say enough great things about them. I used to go to their shows on a regular basis {any time they were in Southern California} …I miss it a lot! I will never forget their shows …especially this one!

24 hours is just not enough



Lets be real here. 24 hours in a day is just not enough for all the things we want to do!! All I ever find myself saying is how I have so much to do and no time to do it! It’s crazy! I wish days were longer sometimes. I mean come on now. I want to sleep, and lately I’ve been sleeping somewhere around 8-9 hours; which I need. But then I wake up and have to walk my dogs. Which takes about 20 minutes sometimes. Just depends. I’ll be honest, I don’t wake up early. I wake up around 11. But I also dont go to bed until 2-3am. Just the crappy cycle I’m on right now. But then throughout the day I have so much I want to do and need to do. 

I find myself having to clean my house constantly. With 7 dogs its not surprising. But I have a big house so really getting it clean takes all day if not 2 full days. So there goes that. I love going out with my husband and doing stuff. Lately we’ve been trying to get out and go fishing or hiking. Today we took our bigger dogs to the dog park to run. It’s great but my day is gone now. It’s 730pm.. what can I really get done now? Sure I can clean but I dont want to be cleaning all night. 

I wish there was an easier way to get it all done. I dont know what I am going to do when I start work in a couple weeks. My entire day is done then. I’ll be up at 630 ..out the door by 8. I start work at 9 and I’m there until 6. It’s about 30-45 minutes to get home ..I eat dinner. Then its 830pm. GRR 

Being an adult is stupid. There is way too much to do! haha

I need to become one of those weird overly organized people and have an itinerary for my days. But that doesn’t sound like fun! I guess I’ll continue my daily mess of chaos and running around like a headless chicken. At least my dogs get to sleep and be lazy all day. I’ll just live vicariously through them. Yep, that’s the new plan. 

Well, off I go. I have things I need to get done. -_- 

Thanks for being a part of my journey,